I don’t get it…

How is it that my doctor recently told me that the cist on my left nut is best left alone unless it grows really big, because any ingress by needle (for draining) risks infection which can cause a lot of problems and unpleasantness… and yet some people still think it’s a good idea to drive nails through their balls for fun?

Some unusual feedback…

“I love these storys man they are so great. I’m really into the chastity and the feet and the strapon one. I was wondering if you could make one maybe next time that is less heavy in the like mental torment aspect because I honestly deal with a problem of being really into these fending stories but they kinda crush my self esteem when I get back to real life so I’d love it if the wife in the story really just showed how much she loved him and how she’s doing this for him and acted a little less like she loves his pain.”

I received this feedback from someone anonymously via Literotica, and I thought it was quite interesting, and since I can’t respond to him directly I’m hoping that he maybe visits here and will see this post.

For most people the mental ‘torment’ seems to be a big part of the whole Femdom thing, although this can vary greatly along a spectrum: some guys enjoy being branded ‘pathetic’ and ‘inadequate’ for example. That doesn’t appeal to me personally, but I very much like the ‘control’ element and certain types of ‘humiliation’ (being made to suck a strap-on for example).

I can see where the writer is coming from though, I’m sure we’ve all read stories or watched videos of things and felt uncomfortable or embarrassed about how much it turned us on. A prime example of this for me would be HERE, (funnily enough as you can see I added a note at the top of the page addressing just such a feeling about this story that I transcribed from Forum magazine. I also remember some very negative comments that were left when I posted this story on the old blog).

That story has lost it’s impact somewhat now (probably due to reading it too many times), but I understand the unease that feeling can cause, especially for someone who isn’t fully at ease with their own sexuality. Interestingly some of the comments left on some of my older stories on Literotica also mention the same thing, the lack of compassion from the wife. I never really understood those comments to be honest and as a lot of them were left by people who clearly didn’t even like the Femdom genre I didn’t take too much notice of them.

I don’t think I’ve written anything particularly brutal. Although I do think my later stories are a lot softer around the edges, something which to my mind was a bit of a failing really, since the older ones (to me) seem much more like what I should be writing.

I mean I suppose I kind of take it as read that the relationship is a loving, consensual one and everything that happens is good for both (or more) of the participants. Sure there may be a lot of pushing boundaries but often that is what turns us on the most.

Also there is a bit of a conflict there for me, because when I write I try to make it like the ‘wife’ does enjoy his ‘pain’. I can only write stuff which I think is ‘hot’, otherwise it’s not going to work. I have to have some level of immersion in the story to care enough to write it. So yes, if I’m honest, if I’m going to write about a wife ruining her husbands orgasm then I’m going to make it like it turns her on to do it, and that because it turns her on she goes about it the most evil way possible.

I feel really bad now because I started this post trying to be constructive and helpful but as I write I find myself feeling more and more drawn to the dark side. The problem is… okay, so which one of these two scenarios is hotter to read.

1 – Wife keeps husband chaste for six months, allowing him only the occasional ruined orgasm as relief. Ties him to a bed and sits on his face until she gets herself off. Then strokes and edges him 20-30 times and then ruins husbands orgasm, while apologising and reassuring him that she loves him.

2 – Wife keeps husband chaste for six months, with only the occasional ruined orgasm to ease the pressure on his balls. Ties him to a bed and sits on his face until she gets herself off. Edges him 20-30 times until he can barely stand to be touched and then tells him she’s going to let him cum properly. As he starts to cum she lets go and watches his cock leak onto his stomach, while telling him how much she loves being in control and how much she loves being able to ruin him just for the fun of it.

Okay that’s maybe a little unfair, but you see my point. And the other alternative would be that I make the story hot and then write a little prologue which makes it clear that the wife loves the husband, etc etc. I mean I could do that once, but doing it on several stories is going to come over as a bit lame.

From what he wrote I’m sure the guy who sent the feedback would probably even agree that scenario 2 is way better than scenario 1.

I don’t really know what to suggest, these stories are by their nature ‘challenging’ and may make you question things about yourself (which may make you uncomfortable, particularly if you live in a country where maybe the culture is a little less open-minded), but ultimately it is a question of finding your own confidence to accept that side of yourself and not care what others may think about it. I realise for some people that may be difficult, but you aren’t going to find happiness while ever you beat yourself up about what makes your cock hard (within reason of course…).

Teased and teased again…

Mistress did indeed have her 600th orgasm (since April 2011) yesterday afternoon, and afterwards she teased me hard and left me throbbing. She also allowed me to lick her gorgeous ass as well, which was pretty damned awesome. 🙂

This morning I was teased even more, this time with gentle strokes and fingertip touches. My morning wood was straining by the end of it all… feels so good to be hard effortlessly again.

So close…

Well I never expected it to run so close. Last night I was allowed to cum inside Mistress’s beautiful pussy, bringing me to 99 orgasms since April 1st 2011. This makes it 99 – 599, and being as Mistress is about to have an orgasm this afternoon, that means she’s going to hit 600 before I hit 100. Who knows, she may hit 215 before I hit 100…

The last few weeks have again been less than ideal. One or both of us seem to be feeling ill or off colour and it hasn’t made for a rampant sex life. We haven’t had a Femdom session since January either, which is a huge fail.

Mistress had her 599th orgasm on Thursday night, but yet again I wasn’t feeling too good and so last night when we went to bed Mistress was determined to give me some long overdue teasing. This didn’t go as expected though and after some extensive stroking she pulled me on top of her and inside her. Mistress’s pussy felt so good and so fucking tight, it was amazing. She wrapped her legs around me pulling me deeper as I stroked in and out, it felt so good after all the disappointments of late to just have normal vanilla sex and feel that connection. Sometimes we both just need that.

 

Upstrokes…

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I love it when Mistress strokes my cock using ‘upstrokes’, I don’t quite understand why it feels so frustrating, I mean stroking is stroking right? Umm, no. Apparently not. I’m sure Mistress has some gloves like these too, although I haven’t seen them in a long time… I would love to recreate this gif for real. 🙂

No more sleepy cock…

It would very much appear that my ‘temporary sluggishness’ has sorted itself out, which is a great relief I must say. This afternoon, after bringing Mistress to a lovely orgasm with my tongue and then worshipping her feet for some time while she relaxed, Mistress had my cock hard in no time and proceeded to tease me perfectly.

My ruined orgasm the other day only seems to have increased my ache (which is exactly what it is supposed to do after all) and it was pretty spectacular laying back, gently teasing Mistress’s gorgeous ass with my fingertips as she sucked and stroked me. I didn’t actually quite get to an edge this afternoon, but Mistress got me close several times, before slowing down and allowing me to cool off a little before ramping up the pressure again.

And the whole time all I could think about was the ruined orgasm that Mistress allowed me the other day, and particularly the way she ‘barely’ stroked my cock with her fingertips as the cum dribbled out of me. That felt fucking amazing, so frustrating, but I so want that again really soon. I really wanted to tell her while she was stroking me, but I couldn’t quite get the words out.

The way she edged me several times before she let me ‘ruin’ was awesome and I love how it seems to have increased my feeling of ‘need’, I really hope this year is the year that Mistress really cuts down on letting me cum properly and ruins me instead, this afternoon was so fantastic and the thought of hitting that down period after a full orgasm (as momentarily enjoyable as it may be) is not an appealing one.

It’s Mistress’s birthday tomorrow, and after much deliberation she told me today that tomorrow she wants to get up and open her presents, then go for a long walk, then go out for lunch and then come home and watch one of her favourite films. This is a new thing it seems, that the person having the birthday gets to choose what we do all day. I’m not against it, indeed I suggested to Mistress that come October she’ll be spending a long day stroking me to edge after edge after edge (with some breaks in between), sounds pretty awesome to me! 🙂

Starting as we mean to go on…???

It amazes me how many views my blog continues to get even when I fail to post for nine days. Thankfully, I now have something to post about. And since I’ve been so lax of late I kinda feel like this should be a decent post.

So, first of all the last week or two hasn’t been the greatest. For one reason or another I really haven’t been feeling ‘horny’ at all. A tell tale sign being no morning wood, which is very unusual for me, and most disconcerting. This may be partly because I got out of the habit of doing my ‘mobility’ exercises and my regular walking, and also more likely I have an infection which I am now half way through a course of antibiotics for.

Thankfully the last two mornings I have been back to my old self, which is awesome. As I say I’m half way through the medicine and also I’ve done exercise every day this month (and yesterday I did three, yes three walks! – insane!). Over the last 15 years I’ve endured a lot of physical pain (back, leg, foot) culminating in a major operation in 2007, but none of that bothers me like ED. Thankfully this hasn’t been a major problem this time, it just took me a longer than usual amount of time to get going. And now it seems to be sorted anyway.

This afternoon Mistress had her third orgasm since the start of our new chastity year, which is a reasonable start. It probably would have been four if I hadn’t had a stomach ache on Thursday night. And afterwards we cuddled up and started to kiss. Unlike last week, my cock started to harden straight away and in no time at all Mistress was sucking and stroking my rock hard cock.

It felt fucking awesome to be so hard so quick, and it was clear Mistress was enjoying herself too. 🙂 I teased her ass with my fingertips as she stroked and sucked and wondered if she might allow me to tongue her ass again. Mistress started stroking harder and faster and I could feel the pleasure building to an edge, before Mistress slowed down again. Then, before I could ask for permission to worship her gorgeous asshole, she got up on her knees and straddled me, sinking down onto my aching cock. It felt incredible being inside her super-tight pussy, and it wasn’t long before I was struggling to hold back from shooting inside her.

Any thoughts of begging for her to remove her bra were quickly banished as the last things I needed to see right then were Mistress’s gorgeous breasts. Mistress was plainly smirking at me as she watched me struggle, which only made it worse. I could feel my lips trembling as I bit the lower one and before too long I had to warn Mistress off.

“I’m getting close Mistress,” I said.

Mistress slipped off of me and knelt beside me.

“It’s time to stop then…” she said, before adding “…or is it?”

She lightly grasped my cock and settled down to stroking me again, again I reached the edge and I thought this would be the end. Mistress let go for a short time and then started stroking me again, this was so feeling fantastic and just what I needed to restore my faith in my previously lethargic cock. I really love it when Mistress edges me, stops and edges me again… so fucking awesome!

She started stroking faster and I warned her of yet another edge, this time she continued stroking and told me to cum, but just as I started to orgasm Mistress let go and then softly stroked the underside of my straining cock with her fingertips. It was one of the ‘best’ ruined orgasms I’ve had, leaving me completely frustrated as I leaked out a huge puddle of cum. I’m sure being edged a few times before being allowed to ‘cum’ made it so much better, the pressure was really built up and made it so much more awesomely frustrating…. 🙂

With Mistress thoroughly satisfied and me completely ruined I can’t think of a better start to our sixth year of full-time chastity, and I think it’s a given now that Mistress will get to her 600th orgasm way before I got to my 100th. Which gives us more than a 6-1 ratio for the first five years, which is pretty good, and interestingly our last chastity year also had the exact same ratio. The previous year was 8.3-1, so there’s work to be done there! Hopefully Mistress will use her amazing ruining technique to good effect this year and will feel less inclined to let me cum properly.

There two other things that I was going to write about, but one of them has completely gone out of my head. However, the other one… is still clear in my mind’s eye.

You know how you get blase about stuff, and feel like you’ve seen it all before? Well, tumblr (of course) is the place to see stuff you never knew you hadn’t seen, and today was no exception. I was browsing my tumblr feed when I saw a clip of a guy, how can I say this… well there’s no way to say it other than to say it… pushing his balls into a girl’s ass.

I mean… I get why you’d want to stick your cock in a girl’s ass, but it had never occurred to me to even contemplate tying my balls and shoving them into a girl’s ass. I mean, who thinks of these things? Anyway, if you want to see a guy shoving his balls into a pretty girl’s asshole, then by all means visit my tumblr feed, because I felt utterly compelled to repost it. 🙂

Well I still can’t think what the other thing was, maybe it will come to me later.