Battling on…

Once again, sorry for the absence of posts of late. Last week was up and down, my cold is still here, in fact I came home from work early after throwing up four times… I’m feeling a bit better now having spent the whole afternoon in bed.

We did go to London though not until Thursday, we got up early on Tuesday but I felt so rough that we abandoned our plan. It was great when we eventually went, although it didn’t run entirely to plan. I never got my Pina Colada and the cinnamon buns were disappointing, but we saw lots of very cool watches and handbags (and shoes in the bizarre ‘mirrored walls’ Kurt Gieger store in Covent Garden). It was probably the best trip to London we’ve had in a long time actually, and I’m looking forward to going back next year and making it to Harrods this time.

As you can see, I was allowed to cum last week. That was unexpected and great, and afterwards Mistress positioned herself over my face and let me lick her gorgeous cum-filled pussy clean. I really loved that she stayed there a little longer than she usually does as well, so HOT! 🙂

Bizarrely, as crap as I was feeling this afternoon, I seemed to spend an awful lot of time with a massive hard on. I guess I was warm, relaxed and chilled and thinking about sex a lot while I was dozing. Odd really, because I can usually tell when I’m getting ill by my lack of ‘morning wood’, nice to know that at least one part of me is on the mend.

As I said, apologies for the lack of posts, I’m sure things will get back to normal sooner or later, and please know that I appreciate your patience you lovely people!

I want my morning wood back!

It’s been a tough few days, and rather predictably I have got a cold. I guess I’m so run down what with everything that’s been going on that it was bound to happen. Still, just a few minutes ago Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue and then she teased me too. My cock was a bit reluctant but by the end it was nice and hard…

I’m looking forward to getting my libido back, I sure do miss waking up hard every morning!

We are off work this week, and planning a trip to London tomorrow (mainly to look at handbags and watches but also to eat cinnamon buns and drink cocktails), so that should be fun. I hope I feel a bit less rough than I felt this morning though!

Thanks for all the kind messages…

Firstly, thanks to all of you who have left kind messages for me. The past couple of weeks have been pretty tough, and the funeral is on Thursday… I’m sure that will be very tough as well, but overall I feel like the worst is over. I saw a photo of my Dad today that I had never seen before, from many years ago. I’m guessing he was in his early thirties at the time… it was very odd to see him looking so young and thin, I can’t remember him ever being thin, although apparently he was a football referee until he was about 40 (when I was 6).

Needless to say I have been under a lot of stress lately, on top of the bereavement I was in a car crash, and I’ve also been working very hard to cover holiday at my work. Perhaps it’s not surprising that my libido took quite a hit, and the last two times Mistress has teased me I have struggled to stay hard.

Thankfully that changed this morning, and I found myself with a very solid cock which Mistress decided to take advantage of. Quite unexpectedly I found myself between her gorgeous thighs, slipping my cock into her wet pussy… which felt amazing. It was just what I needed to rebuild my confidence and as I got closer I knew Mistress was going to allow me to cum inside her – but I still asked permission (of course).

I must admit, I did wonder afterwards if I had some regrets about ‘giving up’ more regular penetration (and cumming) with my Mistress, but I reminded myself that part of the reason it felt so good was precisely because I am only allowed to penetrate Mistress when she allows it, and also that it feels so good because when Mistress allows it she really wants me inside her.

This last few weeks has been so chaotic, I really want to get back to a more structured life and get back to kissing Mistress’s beautiful feet everyday and making sure she knows how much I appreciate her. It’s just been one thing after another, after another lately… and I really would like to get back into a routine where I can go swimming a few times a week, and get my weight loss back on track.

And hopefully, of course, get back to keeping this blog up to date too. We are off work next week so that will give us both a chance to regroup and have some fun with each other…

Sad news…

Sadly my Father succumbed to pneumonia on Thursday night, which has been harder to cope with than I ever thought. We were not mega close, but we had a good relationship and it was hard to see him so ill. When the phone call came I was actually relieved because I didn’t believe he was going to get properly better and the last thing I wanted for my Dad was a long drawn out death. At least he was spared that, and for the first four days in hospital he was reasonably okay.

As you can imagine I am not in the best of spirits at the moment and there’s nothing much to say, however, I know that in time things will improve and I will be able to get through days without bursting into tears every time I think about it, even if at the moment that seems hard to believe


In the meantime, one piece of good news is that SUBHUB has returned, which is great because I was starting to wonder if something had happened to him and Mistress K.